OOTD: Thankful at 30

One of the highlights of my year is my health and fitness journey. If you’ve all read a blog post I wrote last year about how unhealthy I started, I am proud to say that I am now on the path toward being healthier and better. The weight loss, right now, may have slowed down, but it’s because I’m gaining more muscle mass and I’ve become stronger.

OOTD: 8 Years & Counting

A lot has happened, not just in my blogging life, but also in my personal life. Blogging sure did change a lot of things for more and I learned a lot from doing it and from the people in the community. There have been ups and downs, but look at me still blogging after 8 crazy years.

OOTD: Going Back Isn't Always Bad

As much as I would hate to admit it, insecurity never left my system.

There would be times when I’d yearn for validation because I am still often haunted by the seemingly perfect faces and bodies I see on my social media feed. And I know that I always preach about confidence, but the truth is, sometimes I get so drowned with all these images of how I should be that I would look at myself and feel disgusted no matter how far I’ve gone in my fitness journey.

OOTD: That Good Kind of Change

You all know it hasn’t been an easy journey. And even up to now, I am constantly battling with my monsters – my insecurities and old bad habits. They kick in every once in a while, but my determination to finally make this a permanent good kind of change is far stronger.

OOTD: Sunny Sundates

“To being together,

To making things better.

To being with each other,

Whatever the weather.”

OOTD: Learning and Growing

I thought I've got it all figured out. But I guess I still have a lot to learn and a lot of mistakes to do. My 2018 had not been easy, but it doesn't mean I should just gloat and cry every time a storm hits my way. I've been through worse. 

OOTD: Salty No More

I used to not want to take full accountability for my actions. I would often say it’s because of past experiences, it’s because someone hurt me so bad, or something made me not want to trust again. While it is true that those things have some sort of a contribution, it is still the present me who should be accountable for every decision and action I make and would be making.

OOTD: Love Your Curves

“I love the idea of embracing your curves and loving yourself while expressing it through fashion.” – Hayley Hasselhoff

OOTD: Going Back to Square One

Growing up, I needed to boost my confidence on my own or else my insecurities would eat me up. It hasn’t been an easy journey up to now. I keep talking about body love and confidence, but lately, I have let my insecurities get to me. It wasn’t easy to accept at first, to be honest. That is why it has really been awhile since I last posted something here. I felt shitty about everything and whenever I looked in the mirror, all I see is this fat and ugly hypocrite who will never be able to love her body ever.

Of course, that needed to change.

OOTD: Keeping It Real

“If you don’t love what you do, you won’t do it with as much conviction or passion.” – Mia Hamm

I promised myself that I would be blogging, at the very least, weekly. I guess I kind of failed. I haven’t posted anything for almost a month now and it’s not because I’m quitting, but more of I’ve been too busy and stressed with a lot of things.

OOTD: A Throwback and Something to be Thankful For

Gelleesh started out as a beauty blogging project in 2011 after slowly learning how to put makeup on as influenced by one of my good friends, Celine. Ever since, the blog has continuously grown and evolved into eventually also talking about fashion, food, and other things that tickles my fancy. I guess, in a way, this has become more of a personal blog talking about the things I love and my journey to becoming a better version of myself everyday.

OOTD: Being Different and Breaking the Rules

Growing up in a culture that pretty much sketches how your dream should be like – graduate college, get married, lose your virginity, have kids, and all that stuff – is not easy. It’s like if you don’t get those in order, you’re set to fail. I’m happy though to have been part of the generation who will prove that to be wrong.

OOTD: Catcalled

A few weeks ago I was sexually harassed inside a bus.

OOTD: A Year Full of Changes and Challenges

2016 has been a crazy year for me. It is crazy both in a good and not-so-good way. A lot of things have changed and adjustments have to be made. Some people who had a pretty sucky year might have said, “I’m so glad 2016 is done…” Darling, you should know that just because the year ended means the sucky things of 2016 will suddenly disappear. News flash! You still need to go through and deal with them.

OOTD: On My 5th Year as Gelleesh

I have been blogging even way before Gelleesh came out. Although I initially and usually just talk about teen angst and how the world was against me, it’s still a blog. And yep, those blogs still exist because I totally forgot my passwords to them. I will not give you a link but if you’re crazy enough, you can Google them and I’ll let you laugh about how emo I was before.

OOTD: Dating as a Millennial

Let’s face it. No matter which era you belong to, dating will never be easy. There are those who call themselves the “experts,” but how do we really define being a dating expert to be like? Can you be an expert if you’ve found love easily? Can you be an expert if you have never been hurt? Can you be an expert if you can juggle more than one partner at a time? Can you be an expert if you can get laid anytime you want? Truth be told, no one can ever really be an expert because dating is and never will be a game you can practice until you perfect it. Dating is complex whether you’re a player or you’re in it for the real thing.

OOTD: Almost Beautiful

I was, what they would call, an almost beautiful.

OOTD: Life Just Keeps Getting Better

As I was contemplating on how my life has been lately, true that it had its super ups and mega downs, but there are still so much to be thankful for. 2015 had been a great year for me to learn more about myself and about what I really wanted to do with my life. It made me stronger and pushed me to do better. At first I was kind of complaining. I wish “this” never happened, I wish things were different, blah, blah, blah… But these moments, the moments I kind of hated and didn’t wish to happen, are the moments that molded me into becoming a better version of myself as the year exits.

OOTD: When Shopping Was Such A Drag

I used to hate shopping and it’s just now that I have fully accepted and understood the real reason behind it. I used to say it’s tiring to go around and fitting clothes but in reality, I really love doing it. It was just that, before, I wasn’t confident enough to go inside a store, try out clothes, and then only to realize that even their biggest size wouldn’t fit me.

It was frustrating. It was embarrassing.

OOTD: Be Your Own Woman

I remember hearing one time at a washroom in a mall:

Older Sister: Siguraduhin mo na yung magiging boyfriend mo mabibigay lahat ng gusto mo katulad ng ginagawa ko sa'yo! (Make sure that your future boyfriend will be able to give you whatever you wants just like what I do for you!)

Younger Sister: Syempre naman! (Of course!)