“I don’t feel any pain. A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now.”
I have been on an emotional roller coaster lately. I don’t want to be emo and all in this post but I just can’t take this song from Les Miserables off of my head. I kept watching Eponine’s death scene over and over again and I still cry over it. Somehow, Eponine’s character touched my life in such a way that I feel like I understand how she feels; that sometimes there is the urge inside me to be selfish but in the end, if we love something or someone, we just have to learn how to let them go if it means seeing them happy even though you’re dying inside.
I feel you Eponine, I feel you.
|Sheer Top: For Me | Skirt: Kisses & Co. | Shoes: Zanea|
Although things have not been smooth sailing lately and something actually bothered me these past few weeks, today’s rain brought some good news as something I’ve been praying for a few weeks now has finally arrived. Thank you, Lord! I have made mistakes, tons of them; but this time I will give it my best to not make the same mistake again and go through the same emotional stress I’ve dealt with. Life becomes complicated when you make things complicated, no? Just learn how to say “no” when it isn’t right and say “yes” to the things which will help you grow. Easy to say and hard to do, honestly.
“And you will keep me safe. And you will keep me close. And rain will make the flowers grow.”
|Bag: Bought from Office buddy (Forgot the brand, I took off the tag and there's no label in or on the bag)|
Just for that moment – that one special moment... We tend to give in to a little bit of happiness we can squeeze out of a moment. Sometimes it will turn out good and sometimes it will leave us wanting and longing for more but we just can’t get it all, can we? Sometimes, we just have to let go, forget and move on and accept the fact that things are just not meant to happen. We can’t always say try and try until we succeed because what if God has other plans for us but we are too stubborn to notice it because we’ve kept our eyes shut from the reality that we are already facing a dead end – nothing more than that.
“Just hold me now and let it be. Shelter me, comfort me...”
It was quite hard for me, these past few weeks, to come up with a new blog post because (1) I have been busy, (2) I have been going out a lot and (3) I have been on an emotional roller coaster. I just can’t squeeze out words out of my mind. But I know things will soon be okay, I know God has bigger plans for me and I know that I am strong and I can always make it out alive.
“That’s all I need to know. And you will keep me safe. And you will keep me close...”