Gelleesh: OOTD: Just Passing Through

“Like sunlight, sunset, we appear, we disappear. We are so important to some, but we are just passing through.”

Sometimes, we tend to forget that life is short; and that our time here on earth will never be eternal. There would be instances that we just want to sulk into deep depression when we get our hearts broken, not realizing how we have wasted so much of this precious gift just because we still have this inner desire and hope that maybe, just maybe, time will go back and we can relive every single moment of happiness we have shared with someone. Until one day we will just wake up and realize how reality really works. What’s done is done and we can never bring it back.

In every ending, there is a new beginning; and with every new beginning comes its own fair shares of excitement, delight, anguish, grief, heartache and many other more. When we were younger, we live in this make-believe world of how generic things will end up to be when we turn 30; but life is very distinct to each one of us. It is always dependent on how one perceives and lives it. No one can ever tell you that you’re living your life wrong because only you can be the best judge of your own life.

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“But not knowing is not so bad. The point is to be looking, searching, to stay hungry.”

There is still a lot more to learn about life, love and its bizarre and diverse details. Sometimes, I still haven’t got a clue what is really going on or why things happen. Sometimes it can all be so confusing; but there would still be these little moments of happiness in between that makes it all worth living and experiencing. I will never fully understand, I know I won’t; but I can always try, take risks and continue on with my journey wherever it may lead me. I can make plans, I can make projections but honestly, no one will ever know.

“You have to be a little deluded to stay motivated.”

Sometimes, well, a lot of times, I love playing tricks with my mind. I love staying in this make-believe world of mine where I’m always in the extremes – either I’m in complete bliss or a total wreck. Through these, I get to escape reality. And by escaping reality I don’t mean just the awful moments; but most of the time, I escape the more ecstatic ones; those moments when you’re so elated that you tend to forget that the coins have two sides. I pull myself down a bit just for a little shake. And during those moments when I’m lost in between reality and my thoughts – I get more prolific. However, this time, I got so lost in reality, that I forgot to pull myself back; very ironic.