“What did you do to your hair?!”
I’ve had mixed reactions with regard to my hair. People have become so used to my long and wavy do that the sudden cut back to a short hair devastated a lot of people I know. I would have to admit that there would be times when I wish I can still have my wavy hair back again and just flip it like that again; but now I can’t. It’s just now that I have come to realize that cutting a girl’s hair that short is a bit like breaking up with someone.
|The day I got my hair cut (Before and After)|
|Here's another shot straight from my digital camera|
For the past few months, I haven’t combed my hair and it’s not because I do not have the time to do so but more of I want to keep it wavy and a bit curly. The end result is it left my hair dry and all tangled up. In short, it has become unhealthy. Just like in a relationship, we keep pushing for things to happen especially if it’s how we plan and project things to be; but what we fail to realize is that in the process of changing the natural course of the relationship, it transforms into something that’s supposed to strengthen us to something that is emotionally damaging us, which is, the unhealthy part of it.
|The day AFTER I got my hair cut. I still don't know how to style my hair well|
And even though I know that I should just chop the unhealthy part, I guess I got so used to having it that the thought of getting a shorter hair scared me so much that I thought I’d look like the girl I was before – physically unattractive and awkward; but I know I need to let go. In a relationship, we know when to just give it up and let it go; but what’s stopping us is the fact that we fear the moment we wake up in the morning and he is gone. The feeling of being so used to having someone who would always be there and then one day, poof! – He is gone, is the scariest part of it all.
But then again, we should always learn how to forget the pain, cherish the good memories, forgive and just let it go. Go on with life and live it as it is right now.
|Experimenting on how style my hair (L) Meeting Erzullie on a Saturday (R) A day at work|
I want my hair to be the start of letting go of the things that caused me pain and stopped me from climbing up and reaching my star. I will start doing new things, revamping my life because as cliché as it may seem, cutting off a big chunk of my hair liberated me and has helped me move on to a better start this year.
|How I prefer styling my hair now :)|
I’m not going to list down a New Year’s resolution except for one: “I am going to become a better version of myself this year.”