To tell you quite frankly, I'm ten pounds away from meeting with my heaviest weight just like how I was a few years ago. However, this time, I don't feel insecure about it. As a matter of fact, I feel good about myself; but of course, I still need to lose a few pounds for health purposes and for a new goal.
I guess I haven't fully adjusted yet with my new work load that I rarely have the time to work out and I have also noticed how I've been stress eating lately with fast food and junk food. Yikes! So I have totally no one else to blame but myself. However, I told my partner how even though I've gained weight again, I actually don't feel like I'm ugly nor do I feel any pressure to lose weight because I feel and I know that I am beautiful. Still... My vitals are perfectly normal and career-wise, I'm doing really well. But I realized that I needed to lose weight for my new two goals:
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1. I'm starting to grow out of my clothes and my main financial goal right now is to manage my investments and my new business venture. I can't go about spending too much money on buying new clothes just because I gained weight again; and
2. I'm in my mid 20's and soon, I would want to start my own family. And if I don't lose a few pounds, it might be quite hard for me to get pregnant because I still have hormonal imbalance.
And so with those two goals in mind I have been, again, determined to lose weight in a healthier way (no crash diets) and I have been doing five minute work outs and some walking (although the rain has pretty much stopped me into doing this GRRR).
I believe that the best way to lose weight is to first have a healthy goal. I lost weight before because I didn't want to feel and told to be ugly anymore; and that's when I rushed things, took diet pills, and stopped eating. I did lose a lot of weight but it never made me feel really beautiful even after dropping off all those pounds. And now that I feel beautiful as I am, I don't feel that pressure so I'm taking things slow, starting a healthier lifestyle, and I just continuously remind myself to be patient and to never rush things. My partner has been very supportive with these new goals... After all, he's part of it (see goal number two); but despite of my current body shape, he loves me just the way I am.