We are sometimes torn between our priorities and wants; and for the longest time I have envied those people who can sport a crazy-colored hair because that is something I have been wanting to do ever since. So what’s stopping me, you ask? Well… Work.
I work full-time for a non-profit and faith-based organization for almost five years now and they do have very strict rules when it comes to hair color and even tattoos (although it didn’t stop me from getting two before LOL). We can have our hair colored but just the usual brown and burgundy-ish… And those are too boring for my taste.
So why did I ever go pink?
After years of trying to hold it in, I feel like I finally need to let it out. This is me! This is who I really am! This pink hair is a symbolism of how I am such a free-spirited and jovial person. I feel beautiful looking different and since we all have different perceptions of how physical beauty is, I think I have the right to express what beauty means to me. Beauty for me is being different and being unique. And I know a lot of people might be thinking how shallow my reasons are, but to each his own. Not all of my preferences can be yours and vice versa.
If going pink is being yourself, why did you have to leave it?
Again, priorities. Despite my want to express who I really am, I do have responsibilities and priorities as an adult. Not all of us can get a job which will let us be who we want to be but not all the jobs that will let us be ourselves pays well… So… Yep, I caved in. Actually, it’s not just because of the pay and benefits why I’m staying and choosing to obey by the rules of our organization. Even though they have restricted a lot of the things I’m really into, when you find a full-time job that gives you the opportunity to grow career-wise and be able to help people through it, how can you complain?
|Wig works, yes?|
I actually also have tried wearing a wig during office hours. It works but what didn’t cross my mind is that I need to also travel for work. There would be times when I need to go on the field under the scorching heat of the sun or even back ride on a motorcycle. It won’t be really comfortable to wear a wig while doing those plus it would be such a drag having to carry my wig when I, supposedly, have to travel light.
In short, I love what I do with my full-time job and it pays well. I am a reasonable and responsible adult so I need to make a choice. There you go. Plus, I don’t need to deal with the Metro Manila traffic since my office is in Pampanga. I’m quite comfortable, thank you!
I was supposed to also post about my second reason but while I was writing this, I guess I shouldn’t. It’s something a bit personal and I guess I can keep that to myself and to those people close to me for now. This reason is actually the major thing that made me impulsively decide to leave my pink hair so… there.
About my new hair style
|The night I got my new color :)|
|Starting to wash out!|
|Washing out color. A selfie at work.|
So I went to a Bench Fix Salon and asked them: how can I get my hair darker without being too harsh on it? Well they offered to just do the cellophane hair treatment so that my hair would just be darker shade of red. I agreed and at first it looked so dark but as the color is washing off, it’s slowly becoming a really sexy red which I did like.
What have I learned through this?
|It's becoming dark red-ish slightly purple-ish xD|
|And before I cut my bangs! xD|
|Wavy hair with full bangs now :D|
|Usual work look now :D|
We would often times need to make decisions in life that we may not ultimately like but because we have our priorities, we learn how to be mature and responsible about how we look at things. Maybe if I plan to leave work and the personal reasons thing is already done, I can go back to having crazy-colored hair. But for now, I need to be the matured and responsible 26 (turning 27, yikes!) year old woman I am.