This is not a totally new outfit. As a matter of fact, I have already posted this before; but if you would take a closer look there were some minor changes with the overall look, not of the clothes, but the way I styled it by adding some accessories and changing some parts of it. I was just suppose to blog about the When In Manila Christmas Party in Arcama last night but I have decided to convert it in an outfit post since I don’t have much pictures of the event and I was suddenly inspired by what happened today, which I can, somehow, connect to an unexpected thing at last night’s party.
Going to the #WIMPartyArcama was such a breeze because the traffic cooperated with us. I guess the traffic must have realized how I’m wishing that I won’t have to spend much on the gas. Hahaha! Anyway, me and my friend arrived on time and were able to take advantage of the open bar but only for a short period of time. Then we ordered our own drinks and food; of course I had my favourite cosmo.
|Bracelet: Gifted by my big sis at work, Ros|
When I was called as winner of a Globe Tattoo Stick, I took advantage of the moment to tell Vince I’d like to sing. Okay, wait a minute there... I’m not a bad singer. I think I’m actually good but I’m never actually the kind who would volunteer my own self into singing. I was, initially, planning on singing, “I Kissed A Girl” by Katy Perry because I was feeling sexy and naughty that night (though I have no intentions of kissing a girl nor hitting it off with a random guy); but the band wasn’t familiar with the chords of the song and suggested “Fireworks” instead. And so I did.
“Do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind, wanting to start again? Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?”
I loved how I sang it. I thought I was good, no kidding! But the song didn’t really mean anything to me until today.
|Ring: Bazaar bought|
The other day, I posted a blog entry in my personal blog about my evolution and how I think I was a more amazing person back then but only a few people have came to notice it because I wasn’t very physically pleasing. Anyway, I shared that blog post in my Facebook account and was surprised at some of the comments and messages I have received.
From Aika (Classmate and Seatmate on my 4th year in HS):
“New and improved but you’re still my Ate Gel. Seatmate. So cool then, much cooler now. Still smart, of course. That’s what I have always liked about you. You look so gorgeous now.”
From Eyah of Eyahnism.com (One of my blogger friends):
“What I love about blogging is that since we always keep record on what we do using skincare etc, along the way we kept a record on how and which to improve. blogging makes us a better person. more beautiful. I don't call it evolution.. I see the same person looking at the pics.. it was just enhanced Gellie. You are cute.”
From an old friend since Elementary which will be Anonymous because it was sent in my Facebook inbox:
“Matagal ka nang maganda at di hamak na mas maganda sa mga taong nakakakilala sayo. Simula elementary idol na kita. Matalino ka at kaya mong makipagusap sa kahit na sino. Ang generous mo sa lahat ng tao at yun yung gustong gusto ko sayo! Namimiss ko na tumawa ka at kasama ni Kuya "tisoy" (Our school service) sa umaga.
Hindi mo naman kailangan mag "evolve". Hindi naman nabawasan yung pag-admire ko sayo simula noon. nadagdagan pa nga.
Pero happy ako sa nakikita ko ngayon. Happy ako kung ano ka ngayon at alam ko malayo pa mararating mo. Namimiss ko kayo. Namimiss kita. Merry Christmas.”
That’s when I realized that people saw the beauty in me when I thought I wasn’t beautiful at all; because when I was younger, I believed that beauty is being thin, being porcelain white and being that popular girl in high school most guys would like to date. And for years, I have strived and failed to become physically beautiful and I think the reason is because I was doing it for the wrong reasons. These people have made me realize that I am beautiful before and still am. So when I started improving myself for my own preferences and level of comfort, I was successful.
|Dress: Thrifted | Blazer: Erzullie | Shoes: Fioni from Payless|
Just like my outfit at the #WIMPartyArcama – it was the same old clothes but improved it by adding more accessories and changing some parts of it. But again, I’m stressing it out, it was still the same old blazer and dress I had in an outfit post way back.
“You don't have to feel like a wasted space you're original, cannot be replaced. If you only knew what the future holds after a hurricane comes a rainbow.”
|With Angel, Managing Editor of WhenInManila.com | Moir Cosmo and Nachos | Holding my Cosmo|
I lost weight for health purposes so I wasn’t really pushing to be super thin. I improved my style to fit in with my job not because I want to impress a guy. I put makeup on as an art and to express myself and not to have guys ogle at me. I have learned how to value myself; I now know my worth and have accepted who I am. As long as there are people like them who understand and love me even way back, who believe and are happy for what I have accomplished, I know I’m okay.
My message to everyone:
Believe in yourself and accept who you are both the awesome and not so awesome. No one can be perfect and we will all have flaws one way or another; what’s important is that we learn to appreciate ourselves because we are all wonderfully and beautifully crafted as individuals. We can never be like those celebrities or like that campus crush you once wanted to be. You are amazing in your own way. Develop and improve yourself as time goes by and soon you will realize that the metamorphosis was worth it.
“Maybe you reason why all the doors are closed so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road. Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow and when it's time you'll know.”